when i was ten or so, i imagined that one of the glories of becoming an adult was the freedom to stop by the circle k anytime to buy as many marathon bars as you wanted. i dreamt of buying ten at a time and eating all but one. i also imagined staying up late, drinking soda and watching R rated movies would sustain me.
now, however, the candy that sits on the kitchen table doesn't tempt me at all. no, i want pie and cake and buttery pastry filled with fruit. i want homemade cookies and bread. thick pads of salty, cold butter to spread on muffins or scones. i yearn for an earlier bedtime, dislike soda and never notice a movie's rating unless my own children are involved.
last night e asked me if i would enjoy going back, knowing all that i know now. would i like to revisit eighth grade and study ancient history and algebraic graphs? would it all be easier and more enjoyable with the perspective of my adult life? i couldn't lie to her. hell, no.
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